Thanks everyone for the kind words and support. After my "AH-HA" moment with Jody and after therapy, I've started to put myself first as far as what I want to do. There's no doubt in my mind this will be tough and terrifying.
My emotions took over the best of me and destroyed any chance we had 3 months ago. I'm sure, just like everyone else here, if I could go back in time, I would have slapped my own self.
After yesterday, I started to "detach", I've toned down the social media "ties" with her (Not unfriend, but un-followed), removed her as a "favorite" on my cell contacts (this way she isn't the first person to pop up), and have no reason to send a text message. The only interaction will need to be about the kids.
During this separation, I've asked myself "Should I put my ring back on?" one side of me says "Yes, this will show her you DO care and want to be better". The other side of me says "No, its not about the relationship right now".
