In which I'm feeling lost, but will perservere

[Elly4]

Bob, Teach, Asitis, PP, and Toots,
Thank you for stopping by and letting me know what you think. I’m so glad I have this group!

Teach, I can tell you that this is the first time I didn’t get emotional, and I could tell he was waiting for me to. So, maybe I’m actually making progress after all.  I’m sure that you will get there too. I just kept telling myself all day to have no expectations. When he first came home, I so wanted to talk to him right then, and I couldn’t because my S was awake. So, we had a nice, calm, detached evening and then we talked.

PP, I thought so too! It was very uncomfortable to have my 4 year old tell me that they had a guest for dinner. Especially because of him, I want to know who is in the house.

Asitis and Toots, I have been GALing, but I’ve been not talking to any of my friends as they are all of the opinion that I should have kicked him out by this time. Then I find myself trying to defend myself instead of getting support. And, as you all stated, my H has been my best friend for a very long time.

I like the idea of reconnecting with friends that I haven’t talked to in a while, and maybe making new friends. My GALs mostly are teaching or board meetings. I am going out tonight with some girls though. That’s a new thing. And I have a competition this weekend which will distract me.

Thank you guys, once again.

Hugs to all

E