My exhausting life part 3

[Kembo05]

Thanks Bob, that scripture is exactly what I needed to hear.

So W and I talked a little yesterday and there were some moments I needed to STFU but I would say something. All in all I was very pleased with how I handled the conversation. I was the one who ended the convo (politely and respectfully) and my W came back to try and engage me in more conversation. Emotions were starting to rise so I politely told her I didn't want to continue talking, we could readdress, but as of right now I didn't want to continue. She got ticked by that, but I knew I had to walk away before I said something I regretted. This was a huge accomplishment for me, I have always had a hard time walking away and not saying one more comment to erupt the conversation. It felt good to know I had the self control to walk away.

She wants to put our house up for sale immediately but she needs my approval on this if we do it before July 15 temporary order court date. She told me she wants to know in 24 hours and I told her I didn't want to rush the decision. Honestly I don't think I want to do this now because I love the house and it's OUR house and I'd like to enjoy the potential last couple of weeks in it before worrying about people coming to look at it, always having it ready to show, etc. Mainly I don't want my D2 to get interrupted by this until it has to happen.

Lastly, we talked about custody of D2 and I told her I wanted to do what was best for D2 and that is a 50/50 custody, well she mentioned she didn't think that was best. Her request is for me to see D2 every other weekend and on Wednesdays, so I asked if she thought it was in D2's best interest to only see her dad once a week if it isn't my weekend. And she went on and on about how it's psychologically unhealthy for a toddler to go from one house to another and it's best for her to be at one place for an extended amount of time. I just told her I disagreed with that, but no reason to have that convo now. I wanted to say "well looks like you've done some research, did you look at any statistics about the psychological affect of a divorce for a toddler" but I just had to make myself STFU. It is ironic how she is so concerned about what is psychologically best for our D2. I guess a divorce, being an adulterer, showing D2 if a relationship gets hard you should just throw in the towel, being deceitful, not forgiving, and being a 30 year old mother and having an affair with a 20 year old former student doesn't affect the psychological health of your D2.

She is such a sad person right now, and I can't even somewhat understand her thought's. I feel like I have to be twice the parent to make up for the terrible example she has on our D2 right now. Luckily our D2 doesn't know what is going on, but she will ask questions someday and I feel sorry for my W when that day comes.

Whew....that felt good to get out. Happy Friday fellas