I will focus on work and try to keep my mind occupied.
We meet for S9 presentation this afternoon. I will be cordial, polite and STFU. I will get the kids for the week today.
I don't know whose life I am living anymore. It certinly is not my life. I never ever ever thought I would be in this situation. I truly thought "other people" had these problems. No I know I am no different than anyone else. I guess that is a huge dose of humble pie to eat.
I am struggling to reconcile the last 20 years of my life and to define what was real or what was imaginary. I realize now that it was mostly a figmet of my dreams or imagination. I worked so very hard to get to where I am and to have the love and respect of my family. I am lost without them but will carry on.
Sorry for the downer post but Eyeore has escaped from his can and is now running amuck.
Thank you DB board for all of your sage advice, compassion and words of cheer. Much love to you all.
Just letting you know you aren't alone. Feeling the same today. Be strong this afternoon. Then you have a week to experience the joy of family.
