Oh, Wow! Thanks everyone for stopping by. Mighty, Heather, HeavyD, Lou, Job, FY… I’m so grateful for your words and support.

I’m happy that my updates can brighten someone’s day. I had no idea, Lou. I think you are doing great with your sitch. I wish I could see you when go to NZ next year.

Mighty, Heather, I’ve been keeping up to date on your threads, just don’t post much, because I just don’t have much time. You both are my heroes. You’ve been pulling through some tough times and still have generosity and kindness to support other people here.

Job, you are amazing! I feel that I always have your support, no matter what. And you always have the right words and particular advice to offer.

FY, thank you again for such great insights. I kind of feel that H might still have feelings for me, but hearing it from you gives me some piece of mind and dare I say, hope. Yes, I’ve been following PMA and No R talk path, and you are so right that I’m kind of tired of it. I just feel that H is still deep down in the tunnel. Actually, another, intensified round of Replay. So, “big” movements on my part will probably do no good. But, I will think about your suggestion regarding Truth Darts and some Reality Talk. Not sure when and where I will have a chance to do that, since he is miles away and I see him maybe about 2-3 time a year. But, I will start preparing for the opportunity…

Small update… Silence from H, as expected. Nothing new on this front.

I spent some time with my GF. We talked a lot too. She called me on some things. She said that I sounded bitter and that I needed to do something to get myself moving in my sitch. I told her that I will take as long as I need to grief and process everything and that I don’t need anybody pushing me to do things I don’t feel I can do. It was a long conversation. At the end she apologized for giving me a hard time. So, the visit was good overall. I think we reconnected again.

Planning to spend some time at the vacation home next weekend. I’m so excited!

M:50
H:52
S28 (my S from previous marriage)
M:17 + 3
BD: 06/12
S: 06/12 - H works in another state