It has finally hit me today, or rather, I am finally facing the truth after reading another thread. While deep down I know that I will be ok no matter what happens with H, I must admit to lots of fear about the possibility of what divorce would mean. No relationship with H, feelings of failure, financial ramifications (this is imparticularly hard since I have been the primary income our entire marriage and quite frankly it pi$$e$ me that I might loss 1/2 of retirement and savings), dating and all that comes with it, having the label divorcee.... and I am sure there is more. I need to work at getting over this. I know this is the most important aspect of DB. I just needed to type it and see it in writing.
BW -
This is the hardest part. The fear of that unknown world out there. My biggest fear was that I would just sit home every night by myself eating pizza and watching crappy tv. I'd just spend my life alone, with nothing but regret, reliving the last ten years over and over. Now, I know that isn't going to happen, because I was able to go out and prove to myself that THAT WONT HAPPEN. I will be ok, because I can be ok...because I choose to be ok!
The best way to show yourself that you can have a life is to go out and get one!
