Thanks for sharing BW. I've said on my thread, this is something I don't think we ever really can grasp. It's like trying to comprehend the size of the universe. We start in denial, and then it's not that we stay in it, it's just so much we can never quite get our head around it. At some point you get numb and move forward, rebuild, and life continues to pass. As months and years go by you find yourself living again...but I don't know if I'll ever really be ok with what happened and the loss that occurred. Just mind blown.
So don't worry that you can't accept this. You're still very early on in your sitch. Just keep doing your best day by day and someday you'll realize you aren't in hell anymore.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15