Also. Update - STBX had now wandered in twice without an appointment to finish what he started as plaintiff. And again, got frustrated with wait and walked out. He continues to ignore her attempts to set an appointment. Two little signatures. That's it. That's all we need.
Bueller? Anyone? Got any ideas on WTH this is?
Some days I miss him and just want to be together again. And I have these happy little fantasies that he makes himself whole so that he doesn't need to control with 'poor me and my inabilities, you make me suicidal' and other mind games. I am having a day today where he seems to my memory to have had many abusive behaviors, not an across the board abuser. Ugh.
In my fantasy, he doesn't think in paranoid circles. He is motivated and excited about what he is doing with his life, whatever that is. He has a sense of humor. He is confident and excited to build a family. We've built enough trust and my friends and family have bitten their tongues about what an idiot I am for still working for our M.
And then I realize I am not having fantasies of my H at all, I am imagining being with a different person entirely!
Thanks for the wishes, Toots! I was just over at your thread, reading. I have nothing productive to say, so decided not to clutter it. But I am glad to hear you feeling steady. IF that feeling changes tomorrow or the next week, you know that's normal, there is movement now you haven't had in a while.
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
