hold on! - 10

[u-turn]

So W informed me last night that her DUI charges were reduced to reckless driving in court yesterday and she's through - besides fees, and 10 hours of class. She paid her lawyer another 1000 out of our common account.

I have mixed feeling - relief, but I also feel like this is another point that makes W feel powerful and invincible (I know - mind reading).

I am worrying about my fins (I am going to start using fins if I may V - thanks ). She is spending money on these things which is a necessity for her - she isn't really holding back on shopping though. This, while I am now intercepting the mail and discovering past due bills, disconnect notices for utilities....... I am paying for these things and more 100% from my accounts just to catch up.
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She texted me earlier while I was out biking (thanks RAI!!) asking if I wanted to go to a concert that she got tickets for a long time ago - something that we usually go to every year.

Sure, she's thinking of me. Would I like to go? - not really (it's something that I have done in the past because she wanted to go). Do I feel like she wants me to go for her image (we go with a group, including her former boss). Should this be an olive branch moment, when I still feel like we are nowhere? I am thinking not.

I know - newbie question, but.......

We don't even talk - how can we go to a social event like this. I feel if we were even remotely working on us it would make sense, but the way we are right now? (cake)