I struggle with moving thing and have gone over it in my head over and over again. I don't want my S13/D9 to suffer due to the decisions of the W. If am there with them they get the love and attention they are accustomed to and deserve. If one of us leaves S13 will go in a tail spin. When I left he did not sleep until I returned.
When I first visited here in 12 I was a lousy dad obsessed with his career. Now I am so much more involved with their care that I am the primary care giver - not keeping score just stating that due to W's work schedule more the kids stuff is on me.
W called and asked if I could take her to a medical consultation and go shopping for her cousin's wedding present. Due to the procedure she cannot drive and our parents are still working. Part of me wanted to say why don't you have the OM come and pick you up?
I agreed to take her since every other ride fell through apparently. I can't help feeling kind of a lap dog, I should be like you made the decision that I am not good enough for you how dare you ask for help. Go f*ck yourself.
