Goodness she is really testing my patience. She left the house at 8 last night and didn't get home until 11:30. so who knows what she was doing or who she was with, hopefully she hasn't rekindled her relationship with the OM who is 9 years younger than her and just turned 21. She was cold and rude this morning and I just had to bite my lip so I wouldn't go off. I've been nothing but loving, forgiving, kind, and cordial during this entire situation (minus a few blow ups in the beginning) but I just want to go off on her and ask what i've done that deserves her hateful attitude.
Forget about what she did and with whom. She's going to do it anyway. We need to learn that their mood shouldn't affect ours. Classic detachment as far as I understand it.
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I am definitely transitioning to a stage of anger with W. I was looking at her this morning and my blood just started to boil thinking about the hurt that she has caused our family and what a terrible example she is for our D2 right now. It makes me so mad.
I think we all do this. This is why the separation is helping me. Not witnessing her terrible behavior.
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I'm not going to let this anger control me, I stir in it for a few minutes and then I try to move past it. I still want M to work, but at this point I think W and I both need a physical separation. I'm so exhausted from her right now.
^^This may be a good idea your YOU. If you are exhausted then this might help. Be warned though. If you do separate you will think about her A LOT. It takes time to take your mind off it.
Me:43 Her:42 M:14 S:9 EA started 2014/03 (or there abouts) PA started 2014/05/30 BD:2014/11/05 I left 2015/10/01 I returned 2015/05/02 She left 2015/06/10 OM still on the go.
