Cali, this morning at church was the first time I actually DID pray for the OW. I asked God to convert her heart, and it felt really strange to send up a prayer for a woman for whom, God forgive me, I've actually harbored homicidal thoughts. But I am bound to pray for her too, yes? Thanks for your witness to that as well. It gives me strength to do it again. Tomorrow. Not tonight. Sorry. I am going to bed, and my strength is sapped. No OW prayers before bed.
Also, you and I are on the same faith wavelength. God doesn't punish. He doesn't have to. We muck things up quite enough on our own, don't we? My W is getting a taste of this. As much as I'd love to "rescue" her, as the OW suggests, I can't. She needs to take this journey and stumble on her own. It's just that I'll be around when she needs that hand to help her get back up... if she reaches for it.
Me: 46 Her: 41 M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18 3/26 W and I meet OW BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring W goes to stay with OW 6/26 NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16 I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19
