Dif - A very interesting experience for you. I can't imagine my reaction were I to read something like that. Just keep doing what you're doing - there may be cheese down this tunnel yet!
In any case, I'm so proud and impressed and ECSTATIC at how far you've come in just a few weeks. I have complete faith in you as a person and I know that however this ends, you will be ok. I'm wishing you the strength I know you already have.
