So I spent an hour and a half in church this morning, at Mass and praying. One prayer I offered was this: "please God, just let there be a prick in my W's conscience today. Just something to crack her icy heart."
I got home and saw (in our joint fair game email account) an exchange between the two of them that I probably shouldn't have read but, in reading, saw an answer to prayer - answers don't usually come so quickly!
My W had written to the OW the following: "I feel like I am totally under attack. And the worst part is, I am believing that because of my behavior, all these bad things are happening to me and God is punishing me somehow. It is awful babe, to feel that way."
Wow. I am guessing some of this stems from the lunch my mom and the mortgage lender arranged for next week, maybe some from the Skype chat I know she read between my friend and me... but for her to tell the OW this in an email was interesting.
Of course, the OW wrote back a long diatribe about how she should talk to her pastor, a woman who left her partner after 15 years and 2 kids for another woman herself, and they turned out alright! (What planet do these Christians live on?)
And this: "You are experiencing a trauma in your life... they believe you are a 'victim,' nothing you say can be believed because you are under the 'influence.' They are plotting to 'rescue' you, but they are misguided. If their attempt 'succeeded' because they guilted you into acquiescence, you would be miserable and even lose respect for yourself. Included in what is happening to you is also a crisis in faith, or at least self-worth as you are bombarded by people who believe God is on their side, implying that He must not be on yours."
Whoa. And my W wonders why I call the OW the "predator." Actually, now I'm choosing to call her a sociopath, but I know, I know... I AM NOT SUPPOSED TO THINK OF HER AT ALL.
But all of that is to be expected from her. What I want to know is, am I wrong to feel just slightly encouraged by the prick in my W's conscience? Should I check myself to make sure she's not feeling attacked by me? Because there certainly are people willing to surround her with love - me, my family, our friends - no one wants to "attack" her. That's her twisted perception, reinforced by the OW's manipulation.
Unless she's referring to a spiritual attack... a whole different story, and something I don't disbelieve...
One day at a time. Grateful for answers to prayers, foolishly wishing more prayers would be answered more quickly.
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Me: 46 Her: 41 M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18 3/26 W and I meet OW BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring W goes to stay with OW 6/26 NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16 I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19
