The Dance of Uncertainty Continues...

[PigPen]

Will do Mr Bond.

To V - it's both. The LOL is laughing out loud, but the email was signed "lots of love". Mr. B is right, I spent an hour last night dissecting the details of the email - why doesn't she use my name any more, she tells me she has another appt in our town but doesn't say what it is, why is that? She's going out of town this weekend, but doesn't say where, how come?

All irrelevant I know. She fired me as her H so there's no need in her mind to explain her whereabouts. And it really shouldn't matter to me anyway, my path is the same - keep making myself a H that only a fool would leave, and be awesome.

The C has openings next week so I'm seeing if we can sit down then. Fingers crossed.

I've realized that I haven't been DB'ing well for the past week and a half and have done virtually nothing to work towards my own goals. Most of my time is still spent on this forum, obsessing over this C appt, the conversation with my W's cousin, and why the messages between the two were so different. I feel like I'm right back to when she first walked out, not almost six months and a lot of work later.

I'm going to post some goals on here this afternoon that I'm committed to, otherwise this situation is going to just keep eating up my energy and thoughts and not let me move forward at all. Reading the success stories last night reaffirmed how important it is to live a life while all of this is going on to take the charge out of how long it may last. No one can just sit around waiting for their WAW to have a change of heart.