I was hoping you would be around. I had a few hours yesterday where I really felt better, happier, stronger than I think I ever have. I couldn't even describe it to my mum last night but I think you know what I mean.
I am dreading the L/custody situation blowing out soon. I dont want to go back there (emotional hell) and I can't stand the thought of a bad outcome. We have to get the house sorted as well. I am longing to be out of this mess and get on with rebuilding my life.
Don't get me wrong. I know you can appreciate this fully, but for the benefit of others perhaps, it is not that I want to be rid of my W or M per se. It is just that this whole situation, logistically, is very draining. Nothing is going to blossom in this turmoil, and that includes, absolutely in the first instance, any chance of R.
As in your excellent post on my old thread - she needs to slam and lock the door before she even stops running, settles down and maybe reviews the situation.
Any R will be with Py2.0 anyway, so lets get on to that please!!!
I think it is mileage; every sitch is different; every LBS is different; tools at their disposal are different - without your wisdom and posted experience, all the support from these boards, my mum, meditation, ICs - I would still be a blubbering mess I suspect.
PS - haven't played pool since I used to hang out in pubs after Uni. Have this strange urge though
M: 6 T: 12 Kids: 2,4 BD: Jan 2015 S: Feb 2015 EA/PA confirmed: Feb2015/Mar2015
