Have hardly seen my W all day, just briefly as we both left the house this morning. I have plans tonight and I think she will actually be home again, for the third night in four. I think all the late nights with the OW are exhausting her, so she probably needs to power rest to make it through the rest of her philandering this week.
She's been a bit cold since last night, though. Wondering if it was something she saw in the chat between my friend and me. Or I wonder if the OW is coaching her on becoming even more and more distant. I know I'm not supposed to think about the OW, but I'm more and more convinced she's a predator and a sociopath. Not that this absolves my W of anything, but she's such a child right now, and being manipulated in the most unconscionable way. I don't know if this means I should remain as detached as I've been all day, or perhaps see if I can reach out to her with some warmth to thaw things. I will play it by ear.
I'm going to grill a few steaks for dinner for my son and me before I go out tonight - my W is welcome to join if she is around. But I've just really focused on not thinking about her today, and it's been good. The PMA rarely lasts as long as it has since my talk with my coach yesterday morning, so here's hoping it sticks around for a while.
Me: 46 Her: 41 M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18 3/26 W and I meet OW BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring W goes to stay with OW 6/26 NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16 I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19
