I realize you are asking Cali but I did want to share a snippet. I know it feels like a rollercoaster and the sooner *you* get off, the better you will feel.
Please note that I am D'd. X Mr. GB is living in a college apartment complex, skipped Father's day to go kayaking with college gf, etc. He STILL says perplexing stuff. He frequently says "us" and "we" and says as the "Mr. GB family.' In the not too terribly distant past, he mentioned if we ever got back together he didn't know when that would be. They say CRAZY stuff. They talk about the future, the past, and everything in between. Just this morning he fixed a zipper on my shoe and I appreciated it and thanked him. What does all of this mean? Nothing. Something or who knows? Probably a combo of all.
Think NOTHING of what you wife says. And I also caution to pin too much on what happens if the A implodes. There is no guarantee (no matter how fantastic you are and you sound wonderful) that she will come back and want to R with you. She may have AP2 or AP 3. And we have no clue if you would want to R with her.
Life is truly short. For your own benefit, accept that the M you know is over. I don't say that to be harsh. However, I read many posts where people seem to think if just x happens, then y will transpire. Live your life, enjoy your kids, and focus on you. If your W wants to R, you will know. But don't spend a great deal of time pontificating that when it isn't on the table. If or when you get there, you will deal then.
Hang in there:)
Last edited by Georgiabelle; 06/23/1505:15 PM.
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer