Mom22 so great to hear from you! I have been thinking of you many times. Did you have your baby yet? How are you doing? Settled in your new place?

Don't knock yourself. This journey is not for the faint hearted. Sometimes we are better if the man we were with cant step up he the a sits down so we can see the man behind him.

At times I am seeing my STBX as he was before this Crisis in his life. This reminds me of the man I knew. I think I will always feel some form of heart connection with him. Whether that means we reconnect at some point in the future as a couple I don't know. All I do know is that I have to live my life and keep moving forward one step at a time. He will be paying me another 25 K of the 50 he still owes me next week. I sent him a reminder that I hadn't forgotten...lol. I said even if there is a point somewhere down the road that we were to get closer that is all a long way off and I need to look after my self and my future. Still no talk of Divorce though.

I have learned enough to know that with MLC the last reconnection is with the LBS. I know that he is on a journey he needs to complete and if I push him or pressure him he will remain in his MLC tunnel. I can tell he is moving back and forth as his behaviour is somewhat inconsistent. I don't want another ride on his rollercoster so I have to keep myself busy and filing my life. I am healthy and fit and I don't want to waste these years. If someone else comes along I am not closed to that option. Although at this point it would take someone pretty special to get my attention. Lol

Keep in touch Mom22 and V thanks for your comments too. Always happy to hear from you.

Me 52 H 44
T9 M 5
BD 12/11 H
split 8/12
OW moved in 12/12
OW gone for good 6/14
We get closer again 9/14
SD 13 Me 4 Grown





Accept what is...let go of what was and have faith in what will be.