Sorry, not much to update I guess. I'm not doing too good emotionally right now. I know I need to let go and move on but I'm really struggling. The best advice my coach gave me was to "be a cat, not a puppy!" I liked that....
I am starting to get more angry...again with how he has handled this (is handling this). Of course that does involve a lot of mind reading. He seems to be happy....
I guess I'm just trying to sort some things out, I don't want to give up on my marriage but he did that a long time ago. If I could figure out how to detach while he is still living here that would help. I also spend a lot of time asking why and how which is not helpful.
It is a bit more than a week before I go on vacation and will have some time away from him. I need to get my head on straight and figure out my plan moving forward. I guess, I haven't done a great job of DBing in hind sight...I've been pretty inconsistent and not enough GALing...
I know this post is a downer, like I said I've been struggling emotionally especially over the past few days....
Me-44 (45) H- 50 (51) M-'96
S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)
BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas) home Oct(sep rooms) (EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed) insists wants D through July 2015 no more talk of D since
