Zelda - Goodbye my almost lover, my hopeless dream

[TLEE86]

Z- I am so sorry that you are feeling all this right now. I know how the emotions just come out of no where and smacks you right in the face and tears you didnt even know you had just come out. Happened to me yesterday.

As far as the signing of D papers, I cant help but wonder if, despite everything you just said ^, if you're holding onto that because you're holding onto hope. That "hey H hasn't signed yet, its sitting in front of him he's telling me he wants a D, but he wont sign. Maybe that means theres still a chance."

Z, your H knows what he did isn't right but he isn't able to say that to you right now. In your posts, I see someone who, as much as you say you want him to be out of your life and you cant wait and all this and that...that you still really want it to work out. That you hope he will come to you and say that he's wrong for everything and you can have your "soulmate" back.

I think you need to really ask yourself, and maybe I'm just insane as well, if you want him back or not. Truly, truly ask yourself if he said Z, from the bottom of my heart I'm so sorry and i want to be your H again, would you let him back in. Because imo, i don't think your ready to date, not at all. I think you might be looking at dating to get your mind off things, to see what else is out there, to give you hope for the future.

Im not saying this to be a jerk, if thats how its coming off, but thats how i view things in my own sitch. That i know as much as i want to date sometimes, i cant do it. and id only be doing it to get my mind off of things.

Thoughts?