Do you really believe that she is miserable? I can't even process that. She is so "together" and "happy" and tells everyone that she is including our kids, our pastor, her friends and her family. Her family thinks I am crazy for refusing to acept that the marriage is over and won't let go gracefully. Jeez, good thing I don't care what they think - lol.
To me, it feels like she wants what she wants and she will do anything to get it, regardless of the cost, family, house, kids, me, anything to get it. The only thing that makes her back down is fear. When she gets scared, she will cry or start to act like a rational adult. Not that I am trying to scare her but I have noticed that over the years. It's like she is trying to prove a point that she is a grown up and can make her own decisions! Just like a 15 year old would think.
Various spews indidcate that she wants to be "herself" or "free" or I am in incapable of "understanding" her now, and that she now see's how "open relationships" really work. I have kept her from "living her life like she wanted to".
Based on some early emails I saw between her and AP, she admitted feeling scared about making the leap but she was doing it anyway, for freedom from tyrany not anything to do with her being in a sexual relationship with the AP.
To think she is hurting is puzzling. She got what she wanted! She has her freedom, her girlfriend, half time with our kids, why would she be hurting?
