She is so smug and so happy to throw us all away on this dragon she seems to be chasing. Nothing I have done has worked she falls deeper and deeper into this and our family becomes more and more normalized to our separation.
The only thing I can do now is let her go which I have done. The big question if I have let her go, why does she still want to make digs at me, push my buttons, and just generally act like a spoiled kid who enjoys messing with me.
Oh that smugness drove me nuts .. I seriously wanted to smash a pie in her face. Was like it embodied this arrogant air like she was entitled to destroy it all, entitled to buy all these new clothes and show off how hot she was ... made me furious .. my wife is very attractive but I found she was even hotter as she never really understood how beautiful she was .. in crisis it was "I'm hot and all guys want me deal with it" ... helped me detach as it was a total turn off to me.
She wants to dig at you because ... well .. to be honest she insists you stay just where she put you, granted she pulled the trigger and left the M, but don't you dare live your life, you are to be a big ol mess, worthless without her there, suffering ... because inside she is suffering but will never allow you nor anyone to see that ... hence the mask, its her defense at the moment. Its a thin veil ... its a horrible place where she is right now, I know it hurts you, but she is even more miserable than you could ever imagine.
