As far as the crying is concerned I feel the need to let it out but for some reason I just can't seem to trigger it. I get those feelings in my stomach and the lump in my throat and then....nothing.
You can still let the emotions processes without crying. Think mediation. Focus on how it feels, where it's at, etc.
A good search term is "Letting your emotions flow" or "letting your emotions process"
Me: 45 W43 S7, Foster S9 (Planning to adopt post divorce) D mentioned Feb 2015, Wife served 3/24/2015. She moved out 4/15/2015.
