Yeah - the laughing thing. It is a new one. I will try to stay ahead of her on it.
In my heart I know she is there and again in my soul I know she is there. She is in this weird place right now that I can't help her or advise her or even stand with her. She views all of that as control now, so she walks her journey without me now and it breaks my heart to a million pieces.
She is so smug and so happy to throw us all away on this dragon she seems to be chasing. Nothing I have done has worked she falls deeper and deeper into this and our family becomes more and more normalized to our separation.
The only thing I can do now is let her go which I have done. The big question if I have let her go, why does she still want to make digs at me, push my buttons, and just generally act like a spoiled kid who enjoys messing with me.
My guess is she will stop with all of this when she elicitis no reactions from me at all. I will see her Friday at our S9's summer camp project. I don't plan to seek her out to sit with her, I will just sit where I can, concentrate on S9 and his accomplishmnets.
I will do my best to be polite cordial and breezy and then the kids and I will drive home. That's my plan anyway.
