PP I've always been told that writing it down is a powerful way to reach your goals.
When you meet with her be a listener. I know that is my shortcoming. I have to make amends with my H for letting him down in that way and basically hurting him the same way his parents did.
5 months is a long time. Your working hard and trying your best to be accountable. All you can to do is try. I pray this meeting is the beginning of something good for your M.
Matt777 said to me that I needed to realize my old marriage is dead and my H doesn't want to come back to that. That was hard for me to grasp but I'm getting it and I can read that you are definitely trying to build something new and fresh.
