She is not running around. I am the one doing that.
She is very purposefully planning her moves, divorcing me, moved out, bought a new car, has her new lover, is living her new dream life.
I am left with the house payment, the dog, getting divorced, dealing with a financial issues (taxes, insurance, etc...) having to hire a L, got an IC, joined the support group, etc...
Seriously, who is doing the running around here? Who actually is in crisis - her or me? It sure sounds like me not her! It still feels like I am reacting to her BS even though I have stopped any pursuit and we no longer communicate except through email and/or texts.
It's hard to see things as they are now for me as I am either in denial and she is moving so fast that my head spins. Her new thing is to laugh at me. I really don't like that but I have added it to the list of things I am ignoring.
