All normal feelings Mike. At this stage those feelings hit you like a truck and can shut down your ability to function daily. This is why we stress the basics of DB'ing to make sure your health. Eat, sleep, GAL, exercise, etc. I understand how you feel right now, I was there. It gets easier with time to manage those feelings. You will be ok.
Having someone to talk things out is also helpful. Have you considered getting a counselor just for you? My IC helped me through those difficult times by giving me some perspective to the situation. He also offered suggestions of things I can do to manage my feelings. Hint: exercise was huge. It can be a release for anger later and early on it has anti-depressant effects similar to prescription drugs.
Your church (if you attend) likely has some type of program or person you can speak with also to help you through this time.
It gets better, you might not see it yet, but it does. If you want to cry just find a place to be alone and let it out, theirs nothing wrong with crying. I'm a sensitive person and my IC has seen me break down multiple times(which I hated), but alone I've cried more the last 6 months than I have my entire life. You don't need to force any feelings to come out, just let them out when they come in a healthy way (not around W or S).
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be
