I have this weird feeling inside of me that I can't quite put a finger and I've never felt before. It's like I need to cry but cannot force myself to do so?
I'm in a fog most of the time and thoughts race through my head from one emotion of 'she'll get through this on her own and come back' to 'she left us and no longer wants a family you are on your own'.
I know I need to prepare for the worst and move on like I don't need her but where do you find the strength each day to face this? The only people that know are my family so far, everyone at work is expecting the same person but it is very hard to pretend.
The one thing that did happen over the weekend was her parents reached out to me via email and offered to talk without taking sides or any judgement. They live out of state and from the tone of their email they are wondering what is going on with their daughter (at least from my perspective). I answered them and said thank you for the offer and I will give them a call later this week.
