Tad, I'm so glad your sons took you out for the day. I hope that you and your sons can do this again very soon. You need to be out and about and enjoying what life has to offer. This was a step in the right direction!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.