Advice Welcome, separating and W moving out soon..

[jedi]

Journaling for the weekend before I head out to a BBQ with some friends...

I find it funny how I think I'm detached, or at least getting there, but then something happens to show me I clearly have a long way to go. Yesterday, passed by W's car (parked) and then wondered for the next 5 hours what she was doing and who she was with. I tried to let it go because it doesn't matter, but it was oddly consuming.

This morning I received a text from W with a picture of our cats and a happy fathers day wish from them. For us, our cats were our 'fur children' so this may be weird to some, but was not out of the ordinary for us in the past. Regardless, I'm not sure why she would feel compelled to send this. We had a light exchange, friendly, and I'm trying to not read any more into this.

And as a side note, this resets the NC counter again. I would need to look back but I honestly thing we've not gone longer than 48 hours at this point, maybe 72 max. I find myself almost wishing it would go for a much longer period to help me detach, and to maybe help fuel a sense of loss and longing in W. Is that weird?

To All, enjoy the rest of the weekend, and Happy Father's day to everyone here!