It's the bigger picture stuff that's getting to me now. Meaning, purpose, love, connection... I mean, nothing is ever perfect. But if you had asked me in March whether I had all those things? I would have said yes. Today... I'm just at a loss.
I get this. I'm about as non-religious as the come - so I'm not sure I have the same level of faith in a higher calling or purpose or whatever.
What I do believe this that I have a choice to make my own path. My meaning, my purpose, my love, my connection....there is so much out there for me...for you...we have our kids, our parents, our friends. If that isn't good enough for our wives, that's on them - they don't deserve the things that we have. By doing this, I'm able to recognize that if my W doesn't want what I have to offer her, I'm CERTAIN I can did someone that does. But because of my feelings for her and the sense of devotion to her family, I am going to hope and fight for us until I decide that I don't want that life with her anymore.
