The Dance of Uncertainty Continues...

[PigPen]

Thanks Bob, I'm still a bit bummed out by all of the talk of closure, moving on, and separate lives.

She said she knew I was doing the best that I could at the time with the tools I had, and has forgiven me, but said on a few occasions that she has moved on.

It's almost like she was DB'ing me.

I have some good GAL activities to get me through the rest of the weekend but have been moping a bit since I hung up the phone. After speaking with her cousin I felt like there would be some kind of sign that she had any kind of interest, even .01% of considering R - maybe that .01% is in the willingness to sit with the MC - even if it has to be couched as an exercise in closure.

When we spoke last week I told her that I was focused on my sobriety - 100%, she told me today that she took that to mean I was "moving on"...aye aye aye.

I did state today that I had fought hard for my sobriety and that it was in place, supported with multiple resources, and that I want to share my sober life with her, even if that wasn't any time soon. She said nothing one way or the other after hearing that, and has been tight lipped with anything direct about us. She's good.