Turns out I will need to adjust my GAL plans for tonight. My son needs me to pick him up from work at 8pm, so that kills my outdoor movie. It also means I might have to spend some kind of time in the living room with the W this evening, unless I stay out deliberately to avoid her. And I'm tired of doing that just for the sake of doing that.
If we do spend time together, I really don't want any kind of fight or ill word to be spoken by me. STFU, detach, pleasant neighbor, all those things. My DB coach says that if reconciliation is possible, we want the W to walk away from encounters with me feeling good and uplifted, not the opposite. Not good and uplifted about what she's doing, but good and uplifted by me. I know she is showing a very expensive piece of land to a client this afternoon. I suppose I could affirm what a great job she's doing in her business. But that's really all I got.
All of this after I hit the church in a bit. Need a lot of prayer for tonight.
Me: 46 Her: 41 M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18 3/26 W and I meet OW BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring W goes to stay with OW 6/26 NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16 I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19