Hi Z. Im glad you're having a good time decorating your house. I overhauled my house the other month and although alot of it was the same stuff just rearranged, it felt good to be doing something and it definitely feels better knowing the house is nice again and not looking like a bachelor pad. Too bad you cant post pictures of it! Id love to see them.
Sorry things havent really changed in your sitch, but I think there comes a point where everything just...remains stagnant and its just time to live your life and keep hope (if you want, which you say you don't) that things will get better and everything will work out in the end.
I see alot of me in you, alot of the same feelings, how I acted was similar to your H, the songs that just seem to tell everything we feel, and just days where its just...sad.
What personal projects or goals have you come up with? you mentioned 3, I'm assuming overhauling the house is one of them?
ME: 28 W: 24 M: 2.5yrs T: 5yrs BD: 22 SEP 14 W Leaves: 5 OCT 14