Ok, having total mental breakdown after my morning walk. The feeling of being abandoned and totally ignored by H is unbearable at times. One of those days you can barely breathe from loneliness, sadness, and loss. Mourning the loss my best friend and companion. Not the person exists now, but the person that once was before BD. Maybe it is because I know he is at the wedding with family or what. Not a good day. I hate that he can't just ignore me and show no visible pain.
Me: 42 H: 40 M: 12 H moved out - 8/2015 I filed - 8/2015
