I am so sorry that you have to be here, but you have come to the right place. Cadet, our moderator, will post a welcome page for you with all kind of helpful links.
You sound like a wonderful guy - you are an inspiration to me. My WAW left 8 months ago, and I have so many of the same feelings as you do. What a tough situation you are in. Wow. Right now, I'm not sure what to advise. I think I'll wait until one of the "Vets" on the forum responds.
You should be so proud of yourself for not quitting on your M. I am very proud of you!
There are so many loving, caring people on this forum. I refer to them as my "DB Family."
I will dedicate a prayer for you tonight. I wish you well.
Bob
Me:55 yrs/W:51 yrs (has MS) M:14 yrs T:15 yrs No children together--3 each from previous marriages Wife Moved Out: 10/19/14 Wife Filed for Divorce: 10/20/14 Divorce Final: 10/21/15