Jim0987 #14 - due for another upgrade soon

[Old Dog]

Very magnanimous with your reply Jim. I don't think I could have done that just yet even with my new found detachment.

... It raised some personal questions for me as once again it was something where I really could have tried a lot harder but didn't. This makes no sense as the only person that has any impact on is me.

It's like I don't try so I have an excuse if I fail or so I can act all nonchalant if I pass. I love the fact I can just wing everything but I'm getting annoyed that I'll still do that even when it makes no sense to - its something I'm trying to explore with my IC.

Now this, I can totally relate to and I've also been discussing it with my IC, although I need to find a new one now as that paid for course has finished.

Why is it that I don't try? Fear of failure? Fear of success? Fear of being found out that I'm a fraud? Fear of not being good enough? A combination of all of these and more?

It's good to hear you had a good time with your kids. Mine help me enormously. I wish I cold see them more than once a fortnight.