I just FaceTimed with STBX and the kiddos. Everything was normal. I chatted with and about the kids. Near the end of the call, STBX asked if I got the papers. I replied that I had. She asked if I was ok. I said something like, "Yeah, I'm fine. I mean, this isn't what I wanted to happen but I'll be ok regardless."

Then, I talked a little bit more with the kids. I began to say my goodbyes when STBX turned the phone towards her, started to get a little emotional, and said, "I really do love you. There's nothing I regret."

I just kind of stared at her for a moment, smiled, and wished her a good night. She said the same and I disconnected the call.

I didn't really want to prolong the call, nor did I want to pour it on so STBX would feel guilt. I don't think any amount of guilt will repair a broken marriage. Plus, I'm not devestated, at least not today. I've been preparing for this day for months.

Now, on to a night of GAL'ing!


Me:35 W:30
D:4 S:1
Bomb: 01/08/15, discovered EA & PA
In House Separation: 01/14/15
W moves out: 04/05/15
I tell OM's W about A: 04/15/15
W serves D papers: 06/19/15
Mediation: 09/16/15
D final: 12/01/15