Your posts are always so spot on. You almost always bring a tear to me eyes.
Yes, I get it, we are all such flawed creatures, so much bagage, so much hurt inside all of us. The only thing we can do is let go of the fear and anger and just let it go. I am not saying that I will stand there and let myself get kicked in the gut but I can love her from afar.
We have 2 kids together who deserve the best, they are completely innocent in all of this mess.
Yes, I am complict in all of this too, I have acknowledged that many times and made situations worse. I know that and again have said so many many times and I guess I will continue to say them until the hurt is gone. Forgiveness is given although it has not been asked.
I have been forgiven of worse and am grateful to God because of it. I realized that I wanted her to ask for forgiveness to make her feel the pain that I feel. That is not what forgiveness is really about now is it. I guess another word for it is grace. Grace grants forgiveness to all without asking or wanting. It just is.
Regardless of what happens in our R, I will try to remember grace and compassion and work towards moving to the light, the light of happiness, forgiveness, acceptance, love and peace.
