I wish I could say mine was more spontaneous. Actually we had discussed her giving me the money, had agreed on the amount but she normally just leaves a check at the front desk, so she doesn't have to see me I guess.
This time however, she walked over to my office and then spun around. Exorcist maybe? Not sure, well maybe not that fast. Anyway, I saw her for 5 seconds.
We are no whee near any kind of hugs or sweet name calling. It's still ANGRY and BITTER on both sides.
So much to process - the anger, the guilt, the sadness, the hopefulness, the meaning of family, the betrayal, forgiveness, all swirled into a blender.
I have so much work to do for me. This weekend I will ride my bike, go to the bookstores, libraries, try a meet up group and get some much needed sleep. Church of course on Sunday.
