I couldn't sleep last night. I feel like it's the day after the bomb. I almost hate myself for being in love with him.
I can't believe what he says anymore, he isn't the guy I know and love. He is a stranger that is out for himself. My daughter told me he was out at the bar with a couple of 23 year old guys. I'm at home emotionally wrecked and he is making a fool out of himself and could care less.
I'm going to give myself today to feel this pain and then I have to pick myself back up. Detaching is so hard, I was doing good before he squeezed my heart to see if I'm still there for him.
