I'm so sorry to hear you are having such a rough time. Matt has become one of my best buddies on this forum. Isn't he great?
There's an old saying: "Never run away from or toward anything too quickly." I think this applies in your case.
You are correct when you wrote "I just have to slow way down and get back to me." You may want to write this down and read it daily. Really - kind of like a self-affirmation.
You are in my thoughts and prayers. Go s-l-o-w.
*Hugs*
Bob
Me:55 yrs/W:51 yrs (has MS) M:14 yrs T:15 yrs No children together--3 each from previous marriages Wife Moved Out: 10/19/14 Wife Filed for Divorce: 10/20/14 Divorce Final: 10/21/15