That lady singing - is she fat?

[Pyrite]

Thanks everyone. I am feeling stronger today. I have been better than this, I am just backsliding - or did, on the way back up again

NDY hit the nail on the head -

Simple answer. You, just like me have expectations on her actions.

This is exactly what I have been doing. Even though I did stop. It wormed its way back in through the hurt and pain. Another quote from NDY -

"she doesn't love you right now" - although perhaps pessimistic, I would change this to "she doesn't love you anymore". This doesn't mean she can't again. Although as Zeus summed up it will be years (if ever) before she comes to those realisations he discussed, and we could all be wrapped up in other lives. I think this is the realistic situation for me going forward.

The important part of DBing for me (and likely all of us) is to not rule R out of the future because of anger and grow through my failures that brought me here.

Back to the "crisortunity" outlook.