1.First he fired me as his wife. Does not want to share life with me. 2.Why, because there is another woman in his life. 3.He picked up his clothes and left like a college kid, left everything else for his mom to resolve. 4.Comes and goes, playing with my feelings. 5.Does not have any sense of responsibilities with his kids. 6.Does not care about anyone or anything besides himself. 7.Said several times, that he loves me with all his heart, that he will never love someone like he loves me but he can't see himself married to me anymore. 8.Then slowly I start learning that the best way is to do the real DBing work, follow the process and go NC, dark, move forward and try to make my life as if H won't be back ever. 9.Then every day H has something to text. 10.If he wants to go, just leave me alone.
Well, and besides this, I think he was very rude and insensitive because yes, it was my birthday, and if he wants to stay out of it, then leave me alone with the people that care about me.
The last text was: "Dear Cira. Sorry to let you know that I was unable to use the bank card today. It was rejected for about $30 charge.
I got this text when I was having dinner with my kids. And all this because he use the card and purchase a lot of stuff using the checking account, instead of the savings. It's not the first time he does this.
I gave him all accounts info and he still does not sit his ass and just log in and do a transfer. I told him twice about this already.
Why it bothers me? Because he does not respect me at all, because he is always just thinking about himself.
Because he has a GF, then text her about your traveling. I am his EX and it does not matter to me if he comes or goes.
Because he knows me, and he needs to make sure I am thinking about him. And I need to move forward, need to be strong, need to resolve kids panic attack, need to hang in there.
Why he can not have some shame in his face and keep his life to himself. I do not call him, I do not ask anything from him, I do not bother him in any way. He was always welcome in our house.
I talk to him very friendly, I do not complain about anything. And I think I deserve at least some space to breath.
I am not and will not talk to him if not about our kids and that will be all. If he does not want me in his life, then I won't be there at all.
And by the way, I got that text at dinner time, and he knew I was out with the boys because he text the boys too. But, I never got any Happy Birthday you idiot!!!
And that is the way I feel, an idiot. This is the man that slept beside me for 18 years and now he can't even say Happy Birthday. Yes I am making a storm in a little cup of water, but I am upset with him.
I am seriously thinking it is time to see things the way they are and H is very sure about his life.
And I do not like to be around him, talking to him or even seeing him anymore. I want to be as far as possible from him. He makes me sick and I do not need the aggravation right now or ever.
I stopped playing around, I do not want to be second plan. He can go to hell and be happy as he please.
Ah, another thing is that when H is in town, he does not care if we need anything or not. It is like if he is traveling. So, why this bull to let me know he is leaving for a one day trip, or if his flight was cancelled or not? Ex wife does not need to know about this.
Sorry the big response, I think I have a lot of work to do in my anger. I was not very angry before. I don't even know why I am getting this adversity from H. I will talk to my IC about this.
