Good news (health wise).. got my bone scan results - HEALING!! So the chemo and drug regime is working. Praise God!! I am so grateful for the Lord's mercy and especially for y'all's thoughts and prayers. Praying this cancer goes away so that I can live a life to glorify the Lord through my testimony and my children. And...my DS18 passed his drivers test. Yay! New driver - but ugh - more money for the auto insurance - yikes!
Bad news - my H is mean. His paycheck was deposited as usual but then he withdrew half the entire balance. So, I am scrambling to cover checks and the mortgage payment ad other items that are automatically paid once the paycheck hits.
I text him this lengthy text (first I consulted my atty who said I should call him- um no) I needed half of what he took out cuz he never talked to me about what items are needing to be paid or have been paid. I hope he gives it back. Praying!
I have not prohibited access to funds nor has he since it's in the temporary orders but now since he's about to go on vacation (again) with the OW and her kids (plus their friends) to Florida, I guess he wants the cash.
So now it's official. I am freaking out financially. Here I am in the middle of treatment, no job yet, and divorce not final and I am freaking out! I know the Lord will provide. I know that I was blessed to have monies to run the household for this long but this is scary.
I don't know who he is. No warning signs of what is about to come next. He's prepping for what? Is the new woman prompting him?
I know he doesn't deserve the head space. I should focus on my health, my children and my God. How?
How do y'all do it?
I keep saying how much I admire y'all because I mean it. Y'all are so strong and courageous.
Lord help me. I need wisdom, courage, discernment and strength. In His Love
