Can it be another round?

[BrightFuture]

Came across a couple of pictures of H on the FB. I was not looking for it, just happened to check out the page of one of the common friend (not a friend on a FB, thank goodness.) So, give me 2x4 all you want… The truth is that it didn’t faze me. He was in a group of people I know and a daughter of one couple (my neighbors at the vacation home actually). He had his arms around this daughter's neck, while seating (mind you she is a head taller than him, hehe.) He looked pathetic. At least to me.

Once again I realized that I’m not in love with this guy. This is a strange feeling. When I get nice e-mails and texts from him, I have a different image of him in my head. An image of the “old” H, the guy I fell in love with. And I almost feel it, that he has moments when he is back to his old self. And, then I find pictures of him… Or, meet him (like I did a couple of months ago at the vacation home.) And I realize that he is not the guy I married and that I don't want to be in a R with this guy. Am I crazy? Why I’m still here?