First post. Desperate for advice.

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"I reached out to those closest to me for support and to ask "please speak to her. Make her see!". I think it may have lifted the fog."

No you didn't. You were (and are) still trying to control her.

"Damn it. Ashley Madison profile is still up. That's a kick in the nuts. Told me she took it down."

See?

I thought you said you were going to start DBing. Doesn't sound like you've changed. Your insecurities are what got you to this point. They're obviously still there.

Yup. You got me. After 1 whole week I am still the man I've been for 40 years. I still have work to do. A lot of it.