It is. It getting better. Hopefully I can pass it up as a bad day (everything else is good) as far as xh. I think it is a good idea, Ellie, to say something. And I love what you put.
Xh sent something to d14 today. She read it to me like 100mph. It was something like,
Im sorry, I'm not perfect. I'm sorry you feel you weren't good enough. Like I said, it didn't work out with me and your mom. You and s18 mean everything to me. So you have to work with me. I'm sorry I'm not in love with your mom, but I love you very much.
I am pissed he keeps saying it didn't work out. He never even had a discussion with me. Either time. I feel like he is saying, your mom is worthless. I threw her out, but j love you and you need to accept and be part of my life. I threw your mom out, so don't take it personally. Let's hang out.
Soooo... He's not in love with me so it's ok to throw me out and start a new family? Leave me in total chaos? We haven t had a kitchen sink in 2 months for crying out loud. Or, a stove or oven for like 3 months! No insulation in the kitchen for 3 winters and we live in buffalo! That's not even the tip of it.
Ok, we know it [censored], but I still find myself frustrated that he makes excuses, deflects, disrespects, and is so incredibly hurtful. I mean, seriously...
He seems to be getting WORSE! Is that normal? Is it going to continue like this forever! I leave him alone! I have since he moved out thanksgiving weekend 2013.
Why is he getting worse? What is happening and what can I do? I want to be left alone! He is such a jerk!
Ellie, I had written a few things down today. I used to do that a lot, but not send them. I will definitely think about this. I have ic tonight. Thank God. Still struggling though....
