Hi Pigpen, that sounds like some useful reflection. What you posted reminded me of Brene Brown and her work on vulnerability. She has a couple of TED talks, which you may find interesting. I also read her book 'Daring Greatly' which is well worth a look.
Good luck on your journey :-)
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We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus